dove feathers like the white of a moon
pockmarked cars, bloody birds, bonnie and her cigars
lips like an eggshell, a wet kiss like yolk
sharpened teeth, a rash dotted like a map
swallowing stones by a riverbed, wolf breath
“the heart can only be broken once, like a window”*
this is where the boys hide, in the breath before a car crash, in the jolt before a dream. danny doesn’t look anyone in the eyes. jeffrey with spider welts on his neck, apple peels in his mouth. those rocks, our silence, sand in our teeth, shards of turtle shell in our hair. we walked into the mouth of the lake, caught translucent fish, peeled back scales and thought we were gods.
*from ‘in colorado my father scoured and stacked dishes’, eduardo c corral
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I have a thing about teeth. It was early August. We were high. We were sitting on your porch steps. Your parents were at an Italian restaurant, arguing about your father’s affair. I crushed seven ants with the toe of my Chinese slipper. You were playing with my hands, murmuring something under your breath. I wish I remember what you were saying. I think you started crying at some point, but I was focused on the ugly algae shaped clouds and the circles you were rubbing into my palms. You weren’t loud. I was wearing your summer camp t-shirt. The wood of the stairs splintered thin. “I’m sorry” “It’s not your fault” “That’s not the point.” “What is the point?” Everyone has their pool boys, their secretaries. I remember a dove, slick feathers tucked behind our ears, a shot dove falling from the algae clouds like a miracle. In that dream, you might’ve been crying. Secret: I still check your Facebook page too much. Secret: I still want you. Secret: I never wanted you. I won’t use any metaphors in this. The blossom of an exit wound. The way water can burn too. How a stump can maybe grow into a tree.