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Ocean big as her thighs. Ocean big as her name.

the space between infinity

Night fell and we would shed our scholar, dancer, musician, athlete skins and slither to whatever rave was being held that night at whatever club we could get into with our cheap fake I.Ds. We would drink a bit on the way there, beer or whiskey or rum or anything we could get our hands on, just until our eyes were glassy and everything seemed hilarious.

We would dance so close, you’d have thought we were melded together, people we barely knew became our best friends, the music so loud our eardrums popped and our hearts pounded in sync, but that was okay because there were no consequences to anything, to lighting another blunt, to staying out until 3 or 4 in the morning, to hooking up in a bathroom or a closet or Jessica Mendels’ parents’ bedroom.

We were magic. Nothing could touch us, nothing could hurt us. We were made of titanium, so divorces and dance teachers who expected the impossible and tired fingers that couldn’t move fast enough over the strings and mothers who spent her nights mourning, didn’t exist. Those thoughts were plunged far back into your mind, where yellow-white lines of crank and the half-empty bottle of Jack Daniels could make you forget.

Not that we did the crank, of course. Meth wasn’t for us; we had tried it a few times, inhaling the powdery crystals, allowing them to dance up our nose and make us fly. We stopped because the crash was the worst feeling in the universe and because we were afraid of crank, afraid of shooting so high we might never come down.

We preferred pot, loved the way it made our hearts beat faster but slower, how everything seemed quiet but so loud, how it made us feel so alive, how the smoke mixed with beer and sweat and perfume and lip stick was the best thing in the world and no one ever wanted it to end.

But when it did, we would slip back into our windows, wash off the remnants of the night and put back our masks for the next day, so when we woke, exhausted and hungry, and our mothers asked how we slept, we could say it was the best we ever had.

Of course, the magic wears off and the titanium rusts because sometimes it wasn’t enough and we would puke in the bushes, or spend the night sobbing into our knees or drink a little too much, smoke a little too much and lose control.

Notes
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  3. the-ravens-song said: Too true.
  4. rainycloudsunnydays reblogged this from wildflowerveins and added:
    Just…wow. This is absolutely beautiful. Sometimes I wish I could write like this, turning my words into magical brushes...
  5. g-dno said: you’re writing a novel! can i read it! if you show me yours i’ll show you mine - although mine doesn’t read as well as yours!
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